Accomplishments

Sometimes, we need to change our perspective. We need to step back to look at the whole picture, not just a little piece. I was able to today, take a step back. Lately, I have been focused so much on little pieces. Over last week, I have struggled with eating the "right" foods. Instead, I have been eating high calorie and high fat foods. I haven't had cravings or have never felt the desire in over 6 plus months to eat these foods. So why did I start again now? I admit, I think stress and working 9 hour plus days played a part. Last week, I told my personal trainer I needed to step back. My workouts were too challenging and I didn't have the energy. However, in the back of my mind, I didn't want to step back. I wanted to push through the pain, the sweat, the misery. I have also had the stress of my knees. I knew deep down inside, the end of may was too far away. I finally got the guts, even though my mom would bring it up (she knows me so well), I needed to move the surgery date up. So on Monday as i talked to the ortho about moving the date up, she mentions April 11. I freak out, nope that's too soon. Then she mentions may 2nd. Okay, still 7 weeks off but doable. There is so much to prepare and I am not ready to give up the gym. Today, I struggled with motivation to get to the gym. After finally making it there, I was so anxious with all the people. Since when did that happen? I tried finding a spot where I couldn't see the majority of the gym. So I did some biking and hopped on the row machine. But deep instead, I wanted to see how I felt jogging and how far I could make it. A treadmill in the front corner opened and I began my journey. I set the treadmill to a lite jog at 4.2 mph, a pace of 14 min and 17 sec jog.I kept watching the time, having in the back of my mind how cool would it be to make a mile. I made it, I jogged my first mile. My goal, which I threw out because of my knees, was to jog a 15 min mile without stopping to rest or walk in the middle. Tonight, I made it and even under 15 minutes! I was so happy. I hopped off the treadmill and im sure I had the biggest smile. I needed this tonight. I needed to see how far I have come for myself. I hear all the time from co-workers, friends and family about it. But i needed to know for me. On top of jogging a mile, I was looking at myself and noticed the muscle definition in my thighs, abs and arms. I my weight loss journeys before, I never really had Usclebdefinition or problems with my skin sagging. In my stomach area, I have quite a bit of sagging skin. In my thighs though, you can see muscle definition of the quads! For once, I can step back and see for myself how I have from beginning to now. I'm three fourths the way to my goal. Has it been a perfect journey? By all means no. But we need to have mistakes, otherwise, how do we grow and learn. I'm so thankful for the support that I have had, my personal trainers and family. I don't give myself enough credit. But I can say, as of right now, I'm darn proud of myself. I can accomplish things I have set out to do. I can achieve goals. I'm doing it! And I am going to say, I have one sexy body!!!!